Some would consider this enabling. This is a word that became part of my vocabulary three months after I was assaulted with Todd's crack-crap. This I feel is because they do not understand anything about crackheads. They think it is the same as alcoholism. It's not. They both are devastating substances, but that is the only thing they have in common. Overeating can be devastating, yet no one has suggested that we send crackheads to weight watchers as another quick fix for society's mounting endangerment from crack cocaine. There is a very fine line as to this being enabling. One can only follow their heart. Each case is different. There are no experts regarding crackheads. There are no rules written in stone. Not yet, anyway.
I never did give him money. Some in the family did at first, but not later. We all believed there were easy answers. I did not bail him out of jail after the first time. I did not, nor did anyone buy him necessities of life. What little he had came at gift times. However, I must confess, we all over gave to him. And each gift was drenched with tears for a love we had so little opportunity to express.
And it went on for years. Would he make it this time? Next time? He was always with us at holidays. On those brief occasions we all put out of our minds that he was a crack-head. Still, he was Todd. He was OK. He was a human being, there but for the grace of GOD, go I, Todd, son, brother, grandchild, brother in-law, uncle. He was OK, even when he filled the room with his pain.
Todd
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My Son is possessedd by this drug and anything else he can put into his system. Im so afraid for him no one wants to help all they want is money. Part of him is very much aware that it is a spiritual attack not just on him but his entire family who strive to be like jesus. Ive tried to help but the violence and theivery is To much. he disrupts the family. He wont even stop for his daughter. hes tore himself down so far that he has nowhere to go. hed rather live on the streets then in a home with structure and rules. hes haughty angry and violent. i dont know what to do. he was brought up in a healthy enviroment for the most part, He had a great start in life then he just chose this life. he wanted to have a rough story and now he does. dont even see my son anymore just a half eaten chickencarcus. i know hes so sad inside but i cant reach him. im afraid hes gonna have permanant brain damage and his beautiful lil girl isnt going to know him. it haunts me every second of every day to know my son is destroying himself. im lost and yes i pray and yes he has real spiritual knowledge. not just get by but a deep study of gods word. hes loosing his war between the physical man and spiritual one. Im helpless.
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